As I start my blog, thank you for taking the time to read my posts. This is a new experience for myself. As I write, the direction or focus may change.
Today is the three-month “anniversary” of when we lost our son Hope. This was a journey we did not expect. When we found out we were expecting, we were beyond happy. We had wanted another child for some time. It was true joy, when Hope became a reality. I still remember every detail about October 19th, 2017. My husband Matt and I went to the hospital, where I was induced to deliver. Driving to the hospital was just painful. When we arrived, I remembered the first time I delivered our oldest son Drew (age 9) at the same hospital. The nervousness of being a first time parent and then the joy of having our first son. A couple of years later, we welcomed our second son Luke (age 7) to our family at the same hospital and had joy again. This experience had a complete different feeling. I knew I was leaving the hospital without our third child.
Two days prior of October 19th, I was preparing to leave work to go to the doctor. I had tried to print my maternity paperwork to start the process of having all of my paperwork completed in a timely manner for the new year. I remember going to the copy machine talking to a couple of co-workers, saying good-bye to a couple more co-workers and took my water cup and started the hour drive to the doctor. When I arrived at the doctor’s office, I was early, so I took my calendar out and worked on some things not knowing what was to come.
Through this blog, I hope I can share our story and hope it will bring hope to others. I have always enjoyed writing and hope this will continue the healing process for myself.
*The picture above is at the Angel of Hope Monument in Washington, MO. Each year on December 6th, children are honored at the Angel of Hope Monuments across the country.
Love you. Your words are healing.
Love you too Karen~Thank you for being such a good support and friend.
Thank you for sharing your story, Robyn. I’ve heard of this monument, but didn’t know for sure what it was about. You and Matt and the boys have family, friends and a faith family who love you and will help you in any way we can. I know some students who love you too. Your strength and courage to share this blog are exemplary of who you are and inspirational for others. Continued prayers for strength and comfort. Hope to see you soon!
Thank you Sheilah. This is a journey we have to continue to travel. Thank you for your support and encouragement.
I can only imagine how this page could help so many others who have lost a little one like yourself. Thank you for being so honest and forthcoming with your story. You and Matt are amazing parents. You are an amazing person. Sophia still loves you so much. We are praying for you to have healing and love.
Thank you Kayla for your encouragement. You have such a sweet family and Sophia has a place in my heart! Blessings always to you~Robyn
I’ll anxiously await each entry in your blog. I know it will be healing for you to write it and it will help me better understand the journey. I can’t imagine what it is like to lose a child. I too remember the birth of mine and no matter how difficult the labor, I went home with a bundle of joy!! I’m so very sorry for your loss!!
Thank you Teri for your kind words. I truly appreciate your care. All the best to you, Robyn
Robyn – so happy you’ve started this blog!! I too have found peace of mind and heart through writing. I will pray it helps you walk through this time to a place of solid footing. I know God will also be using your story to minister to others. Coffee soon! ❤️
Thank you Lisa~I appreciate your friendship. Thank you for the kind words.