March has arrived.  We would be welcoming our son this month.  March brings a variety of emotions this year.  I love Spring and Easter.  The birds singing and the flowers blooming, are two of my favorite aspects of Spring.  This year though, it is different.  I still enjoy hearing the birds sing and wanting to get started in the garden, but knowing Hope won’t be arriving is sad.  We were driving home last night and Drew said, “Mom, there’s Hope’s star shining.”  I said, “Yes, it is”  Luke said, “His star shines every night.”  The boys are open about our loss and I am glad they have a comfort level talking about our Hope.  As we were driving home I said, “It’s okay even though it’s not okay.”  Luke asked for the song “True Colors” to be played as we were driving home.  The boys know one of my favorite songs is True Colors and they lyrics are beautiful.

I posted on Robyn’s Nest of Hope’s Facebook page an analogy of March from a contributor of Still Standing Magazine.  When March comes, some days are blustery and some are calm.  It truly is a picture of grief.  Some days are blustery with grief and the grief comes strong.  On other days grief is a stillness, like a calm day in March.

I remember a friend of mine who walked similar journey said, “Let your friends carry you, when you cannot walk.”  As we have been on this journey, my friends and family have been the ones to carry me.  Thank you for your encouragement, hugs, texts, meals, cards and for being that support.  I am truly grateful for our friends and family who have carried us.  As March continues, we will march on together.  As the colors of Spring show through, we will continue to see the beauty in Spring.